The Struggle is Real

Family,

...I didn't think I would write today, but I need to.  I didn't take the news well at first at all.  I counseled with my district leader Elder Biehn...and I ended up counseling with President Huntsman about it.  He said to me that, "as a missionary, there are things that you can control and things that you can't control; focus on the things you can control".  He told me to write my feelings about it to you and to just give it time.  Forgive me because I was one of those who thought of the strangeness of the situation, how weird it seemed...but...all the reasons you gave are true.  I've come to grasp the reality of this.  I now feel the truthfulness of this situation.

I had another dream with Dad in it.  Mom and Rod were sitting together talking in the room of Grandma and Grandpa's house.  The house was the way it was before, with the large tv room having the front door in it.  In that room was Dad.  He was at my level, and he was counseling with me! .....but...I didn't hear his voice.  His mouth was moving, and his eyes were more open, the way he looked when counseling with me.  But I couldn't hear him.  ...what was he saying?  I know he had to have been talking about what was happening in "the other room" I don't know...I need to interpret that now.

At first, I felt my feelings towards family members changing and I knew I could NOT have that.  I don't like contention at all, and so I couldn't let this change the way I think of you.  With that said...I'm letting you know now...that I have accepted that this is happening.  I'm okay with what you are doing.  I'm looking forward to seeing how this will be, and how others will react too. haha.  All is well with me . 

I got a letter from Grandma...but she didn't say anything about it.  I think she's waiting for me on that.  I want to go...we're having a bbq at President's house right now, and I want to just enjoy my P-day without staring at my iPad the whole day.  I just met Elder Harding!! We went to junior high together!  Becca's brother in law!! I'll send that picture. Anyway...love you bye.